Daily grind, change of pace

Here we go again. 

Let me share you this. I write not because I want the world to KNOW what I feel.

I write because my mind cannot withhold my feelings and I lack someone to share it to... 

I mean a real, alive person (face to face). At least here I am, talking to a blogger.com without a reader or a page-turner. 

I like the way it used to be. 

I mean, when we were tight best friends. 

Eversince he mentioned that he has a crush on me, (well, that was yesterday)

My world turned upside down. 

I mean, It would be evidently awkward already. 

 but... maybe because I myself feel something for him.

I just don't know how to explain it. 

maybe because, I am unsure...

Uncertain...

It's like you're used to do the same things all over again, and then all of a sudden, something intervene in your daily routine. 

Our routine is that we tease each other everyday, but at the end of the day, we talk about the OTHER people we love. Not the both of us. 

IT'S SO WEIRD. 

BUT... I'm trying to make it not too odd. 

Besides, I'm not sure if he's really serious with it.

I hope he's not. 

I hope he is. 

OH, I DESPISE THIS FEELING. 

I'm done. 

-whoever I am.