Smiling

A picture depicts a thousand words. 

See that smile? I'm hella happy. :) 

That day, that day, is the day I have to let go.

I can't believe that I'm going through an abnormal condition called "having a crush on a best buddy." It's seriously abnormal because he told me before that had a crush on me and I was to worried about that I did not mind it in the first place thinking he was kidding. Now, he has a crush on someone else, bere I am, having a crush on him. I'm flaunting my stupidity here. But despite the fact that I sort of like him because he's way too funny and sweet, I keep on helping him to get the girl that he loves. Imagine, we (together with my other friends) told his PARENTS that we will do the project in my girl-friend's house but the truth is, only me and my girl-friend will do it... as for him, he'll go SOMEWHERE ELSE. Ugh, I'm so... WHAT? Is this unconditional love? Loving someone without asking for something in return? Heck, no. This is stupidity. Not just that, while we were doing our Performance Task (together with my 2 buddies) in his room, he would hug me and lean on my shoulder from time to time. I know that he's like that to every girls and he used to do it to me before but how come now, there's this weird butterflies in my stomach when he hugged me. :( Well, I don't hug back {Cause they think I'm an emotionless robot}. WHATEVER. I just don't want our friendship to reach the BROKEN LINE. I want us to be friends. At the same time, I want us to be US. :( #UncertainPart2

Enough said.

Daily grind, change of pace

Here we go again. 

Let me share you this. I write not because I want the world to KNOW what I feel.

I write because my mind cannot withhold my feelings and I lack someone to share it to... 

I mean a real, alive person (face to face). At least here I am, talking to a blogger.com without a reader or a page-turner. 

I like the way it used to be. 

I mean, when we were tight best friends. 

Eversince he mentioned that he has a crush on me, (well, that was yesterday)

My world turned upside down. 

I mean, It would be evidently awkward already. 

 but... maybe because I myself feel something for him.

I just don't know how to explain it. 

maybe because, I am unsure...

Uncertain...

It's like you're used to do the same things all over again, and then all of a sudden, something intervene in your daily routine. 

Our routine is that we tease each other everyday, but at the end of the day, we talk about the OTHER people we love. Not the both of us. 

IT'S SO WEIRD. 

BUT... I'm trying to make it not too odd. 

Besides, I'm not sure if he's really serious with it.

I hope he's not. 

I hope he is. 

OH, I DESPISE THIS FEELING. 

I'm done. 

-whoever I am. 

Semb-r-e-a-k

A little bit of everything. 

SEMBREAK. 
SEMBREAK. 
SEMBREAK. 

This is mind-BLOGgling. 

Yeah that's right. I just added a new word in my own dictionary. 

HAHA. mind-bloggling - adv. the feeling when you get to see your blog and you are quite sure that you have to post something or else you'll die of boredom.  

ALL I DID WAS TO PROCRASTINATE though I'm done with my assignments. 

I just, don't feel... productive.

It's like I sleep late at night, then I woke up.. still lying on my bed.
I'm stuck at home. 

Though there were days that I go out.

I mean. I wanted this sembreak to be more than just ordinary. I want it to be surreal.

OKAY. Breathe. Maybe I'm just exaggerating. 

I've watched a couple of movies though.

THOR: THE DARK WORLD

To be extremely honest, this is the best movie that I've watched. IT MADE ME LAUGH. LOKI, ohh.. LOKI. I never thought his character would be so... FUNNY. I'd like to put a thumbs-up on the part when Loki saved Thor. AWW. Sweet. HAHA! The movie was E-P-I-C. 

THE INTERNSHIP

This movie made me cry because Dylan O'Brien is so cute. Lol, just kidding. I mean, it's about 2 "old" men who lose their jobs and their last chance was to try out the internship in Google Inc.  FUNNY. CREATIVE. PECULIAR. Still, Dylan O'Brien is handsome. HAHA.

ZOMBIELAND

My favorite movie. I don't know but I would love to watch it again and again. I mean.... IT'S JESSE EISENBERG AND EMMA STONE. DUH? Who wouldn't love this? They're PERF with and ECT! Talahasse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHA. You'll know it when you watch it. I'm inlove with JESSE AND EMMA. x Yeah, they are the best, GREAT ACTORS too. That little rock... She's extremely adorable. And I'm proud to say, she is right... "12 is the new 20". x

Good night. So.... that's what I call SEMBREAK. RELAX.

Time to nut up or shut up. x

Rick Riordan and the House of Hades

HOUSE OF HADES. 

I never thought this would be the saddest book. Yet the best. PERCABETH forever. But Leo and Calypso... that's something. :"> So sweet. 

SERIOUSLY. :( BEST BOOK EVER.

P.S. Rick Riordan..... you're the greatest writer alive. Hope you'll include my name in one of your books. HAHA. PAMMY here. LOL. #HASHTAG ASSUMING. But still... please be like. Peter Van Houten in the Fault in our Stars. HAHA. LISTEN TO ME. :(

Ugh. 

20 BLESSED MINUTES.

20 Minutes

20 minutes. That is all I have. Now, I only have 19 because this freakin website eats a lot of MB causing my wi-fi to slow down. SLOW DOWN. I NEED TO SLOW DOWN. These past few days all I ever think of is that my life is in the fast lane (as if I’m inside Ethan Hawke’s Ferrari and he’s doing all his best to speed up, and eventually making me throw up). So let’s have a recapitulation of what had occurred on these past few days of my so-called enchanting life…

I was tasked to be a guy for the Mr. and Mrs. Intramurals. Ofcourse, they called me the ESCORT and Ian Pante was my muse. Okay, the thing is that… I don’t really know how to act as a guy or a boy. I’m not even boyish at all (nor a totally girly one. I’m just… right or exact if that word fits me).  AN ESCORT. Like seriously… of all people, why me? HAHAHA.  The funny thing was, I already wore his jersey and pants when one of my classmates approached me and said, “let’s exchange jerseys.” So I did what she asked. Unknowingly, I wore “HIS” jersey. They jersey of my former crush. (Not really his jersey but the jersey he broughtL). LOL. I don’t know but I was immensely happy. L Though I shouldn’t be. I mean… it’s his jersey… so what? There won’t be a possibility that we will be together by wearing his jersey or a possibility that he will love me again. I felt so stupid. STUPID in a way that I am back to my old self…. PERSISTENT ABOUT LOVE. Always insisting… always ASSUMING >. 

ANOTHER PASSED BY. Our Physics teacher returned our notebooks and since I am the "pageturner", once I opened it, I saw a cute tiny red post-it attached on a single page with words, "Sorry :) - Sir Sam". <3 THAT MADE MY HEART... OH. :"""""""""""""""""""""> It was.. it was.... the downside of it was.. he somewhat tore accidentally a part of the page... but... nevermind the downside. What matters most is the NOTE, that cute 3 words note. x MADE ME BLUSH FOR LIKE A LIFETIME. HAHAHA! It's a great feeling. :( :) LOL. #IhaveacrushonmyPhysicsTeacherSinceDay1

UNCERTAINTY RUNS IN MY BLOOD

I AM FERVENTLY ANNOYING.

I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT I CERTAINLY AM. X
FORGIVE ME.



















HONESTLY, I'M INLOVE. BUT NOT. YES. BUT NOT.

Gone away

RETREAT.


I cried a lot. :( I encountered God. I HELD HANDS WITH MY TWO former CRUSHES WHICH WAS WAY TOO AKWARD. I fell for... nevermind. I got sick. I prayed. ♥

Uncertain

I don't know if there's a possibility that I might pass the College Entrance Exams. 

Ohkay. Breathe. How can I breathe if I am not even confident of my answers awhile ago. USTET. Yes, it's not that hard. On the contrary, it's that EASY.

STRIKETHROUGH. I just can't believe it. I have one chance left. DLSU, please. 

I Do Not Know What To Do. 

Speak with me. 

Enlighten me. Please. I beg your kind heart. 

Ray Of Hope (Grace Christian Mission)

“There is no sadder sight than a young pessimist”. When I heard that quote about a young pessimist, I felt guilty. Guilty as if Mark Twain dedicated that ever-famous quote to me. To be honest, at times of hardships, I would often tell myself, “I give up” or “I can’t take this anymore” then end up crying though it doesn’t actually solve anything. However, everything became contrary to what I often think and feel.  A dull moment was not precisely present by the time I stepped on Grace Christian Mission. When I first caught a glimpse of those children probably at the age of 4-16 with quite a smile on their faces, I felt amused. I sat beside a kid during the program. I asked her, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I waited for like 5 seconds before she replied and said, “A missionary”. Whoa, just whoa. Again, I asked another one, and he replied, “Soldier po.” I felt a sudden rush of joy inside my veins. Yes, these kids might be abandoned by their parents or their relatives; however, they are still fortunate for they can study and pursue their goals and that the Grace Christian Mission are there to help them. Young pessimist? No they aren’t. They are God-fearing, humble, and any other positive words I can ever utter.

 Young as we are, I realized that even if we cannot escape from devastating events or whatnot in our lives, we must hold on to God’s hand whose trying to pull us up when we’re at the depths of the earth. On our last CAT, I can therefore say that I am extremely, absolutely, immensely and evidently felt the 2 greatest emotion at the same time. I felt happy because I was able to interact with people I never thought I’d meet and I thank our school for giving us this opportunity. I learned that though we are different from each other, in the eyes of God we are all one and that we are called to love each other. The only part that saddened me was the realization that there would no longer be another CAT for us and that I have to go back to reality where I’m bound to do a lot of things in school. However, I did not let the anxiety overpower me for I know that once I graduate, I will be able to help more people and maybe someday, go back to the places we had our CAT.  Just like what Martin Luther King, Jr. said, “We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope”.

Makati, Are We Really Plastic-Free?

    On a City Ordinance 2003-095 legalized by Makati Mayor Jejomar Erwin Binay Jr., it was stated that the plastic materials and other non-biodegradable materials (like the Styrofoam) are prohibited to be used, reproduced or merchandised in the market in accordance to the Solid Waste Management Code of Makati which aims to help in building a cleaner and greener environment. It was on the year 2003 that the City Ordinance 2003-095 had been created and different establishments were given a 9 years to prepare and to eliminate those plastic materials from their inventories. The 9-year sufficient period was supposed to end by December 31, 2012; but, the City Ordinance had been effective only on June 20, 2013 since Mayor Binay extended the deadline. On the contrary, this does not entirely forbids the use of plastic since there are what they called “primary” and “secondary” packaging. The primary packaging contains the items sold in the market such as frozen food, snack food, hardware. While the secondary packaging serves as the support for the primary wet packaging such as the frozen food. Also exempted are sachets, plastic bottles and containers for beverage, oil, peanut butter, alcohol and etc.

    Materials made from plastic had been used for a very long period here in the Philippines. Factories who produce petroleum-based plastic distribute these plastic materials to different parts of the city to be used as utensils, in packaging, in groceries and etc. As oil price continues to rise, the production of plastic materials also increases while the landmass for these plastic materials being used then thrown become smaller. Though there are different kinds of plastic materials, they have their own disadvantages. Since these materials being produced are not entirely biodegradable, it can cause serious destructive effects to the environment.

   Due to this plastic ban, establishments in Makati started complying with the city ordinance by replacing these plastic materials with alternatives such as paper bags, baskets, kitchen utensils such as paper cups, plates, wooden spoons and forks among others. City residents must think first of the environment though some of these alternatives may cause inconvenience to them like the use of paper bags in groceries wherein there are times that the paper bag gets wrecked due to  the heavy stuff. Furthermore, the government should now start looking for alternatives to those plastic materials who are exempted from the ban since it would not truly mean that a city is plastic-free.

  Do we really need to wait for Makati City to be tagged as the “plastic capital” instead of being the business capital of the country? Keep in mind that whatever we do today, there are consequences that awaits in the future. Let’s start moving to a cleaner and greener environment. Just as the tagline goes, “Make it happen, make it Makati.”

A blog? Who writes a blog? A blogger does. I don't actually think that I can be considered as a blogger. I'm more of a reader. However, I can't reading anymore. I feel like I need to write, my own true feelings. EMOTIONS. OVERFLOWING EMOTIONS. That is what you'll see.

I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL LIKE A MEDIOCRE. x